First of all, I want to say that as follower of Jesus myself I want to thank you for being a transparent and open testimony relative to your walk with the Lord.

Coming from a ministry background I, too, share many of the values relative to helping people, trying to serve them in the best way possible, and striving to be a positive influence in the world as best as possible with the help of God.

I appreciated seeing the update at the end. I think that the whole concept of simply and sincerely “following” leads us through many uncharted waters… but is part of what may be termed a calling along the way.

A book you might appreciate in the process is Ruthless Trust by Brennan Manning. Depending on your background, that could be a bit of a stretch for some, but throughout the decision making process relative to following the calling of God for ministry — or simply for life — trust is major as you know.

Another one that I’m sure you know about is Intimacy With The Almighty by Charles Swindoll. Why mention that? Simple: the constant push towards the center and that is one of the best summaries I’ve seen anywhere in my opinion.

And, I can’t imagine that Phillip Yancey’s Prayer: Does It Make Any Difference? would not be helpful. Again, not that “solutions” are everywhere… but skillful, heart-felt dealing with a variety of issues is a the heart of what he says (at least in my opinion).

Gordon MacDonald’s “A Resilient Life” is fantastic. I think you would related to that one. Again, maybe not so much as “an answer,” but as something that would be inspirational and deeply reflective along the way.

Well, that’s that. May you and those you love sense the Lord’s presence and blessing in all of your next steps.

Lee

P.S. You may enjoy these that I penned a bit ago…

**PrayingSimple** May I not miss the reality of you this day, Lord, as I deal with the reality of life. © Lee Wise

**PrayingSimple** I thank You for hearing when it is hard to share and answering when it amazes me that You do. © Lee Wise
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All I can say is AMEN!!!

Loved and appreciated your post. I understand what you’re feeling, and much like you, I’m in the same boat. First and foremost, I serve Jesus too. And, I wake up each day hoping that He will use me to be His hands and feet with every email, every phone call, every encounter with others. I want to serve Him more and pray that as my online presence grows, everything that I do and say will be light. But unfortunately, we’re all human.. thank God, Jesus died for our sins to redeem us and His mercy and forgiveness is swift.

I believe (and my posts and content will be changing up a bit to reveal more about the life we can have… Christ did not call us to poor, broke and broke minded.. that’s the great lie of Satan.. but rather to prosper. Jeremiah 29:11 “I know what I have planned for you” says the Lord, “I have good plans for you. I don’t plan to hurt you. I plan to give you hope and a good future.”

Whatever Christ has called for you to do, we know He sometimes likes to wait to reveal it after we’ve been quite, waiting on Him and having faith that our path will be one that’s in our very best interest according to what He’s planned. Its’ exciting as Christians to anticipate all the beautiful things God has for us… and not be axious.

Thanks for sharing.

Debbie
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The biggest problem with the Internet is that when you feel something that cannot be expressed in words, but only by huge hug, it is difficult to make that happen. Right now, I just want to hug you!

Here’s what I’ve got. . . as I was reading your post, my teenage daughter walked through the kitchen wearing a t-shirt that says: “My lifeguard walks on water.” Your lifeguard is on duty. Although it might be nice to read something, you don’t really need to. In your circumstance, I just pray over and over, “Thy will be done.” Then, as Val suggested, let it go. Get quiet and let Him provide the answer.

XOXO Nancy
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